miracles do happen

i've been quite busy this past 2 weeks..kya walng akong entry sa blog..
anyway, i will tell you what happened to me this 2 weeks..
let me start:

october 17
it was the 4th year orientation day on the requirements needed for us to proceed in the second sem and to graduate, as well. This, was a very emotional day for all of us. We knew that the faculty of CON would tell us about the much awaited diagnostic test. Rumors have been spreading, about the diagnostic exam. Rumors like, if we didn't pass, we would not graduate. So we were all eager to know what really is going to happen when we fail. Unfortunately, the rumors were all true. One of our 4th year level coordinator, said that we would be given three chances to pass the diagnostic exam. But honestly, i really i didn't really care about the second or the third chance. I want to PASS the test only in my first take, because my parents would be sad if I dont pass the test and I would never have the guts to face them again. When askedm what we will study for the diagnostic exam, our coordinator just said "Yung mga Basic Skills sa Nursing"
I wanted to shout, "Alin dun sa mga basic skills sa nursing!!!!" I think at that time lahat kami gustong isgaw yun. But we din't have the guts to say it, because a lot of things and emotions were going to us at that time.
After, the orientation me and my friends went to St. Jude Church to pray. I prayed so hard na hidi ko na alam na i was crying na pala. Siguro kasi, all the emotions in me wanted to get out. I was so scared not to pass. I was even more scared, of DISAPPOINTING MY PARENTS. They expect more of me.
After that i started to study all my previous and present lecture notes. I said to myself I WILL PASS THIS TEST, ONE TAKE ONLY.

October 22
DIAGNOSTIC EXAM DAY. We were all very nervous. I bought a rosary with me. Before beginning the the test we were all given a time to say our individual prayer. I prayed and put the rosary in my heart, like I always do when i take exams.
After the exam, all of us felt happy, because the diagnostic examm, surprisingly, was EASY. I am not boasting or anything but it was much more easy compared to our comprehensive exams. So all of us, were confident that we would pass.
They were going to post the result of the exams on 4:00pm. It was a LONG 5 hour break. So we decided to go to baclaran and to MOA.

4:30-the team level of 4th year were already posting the result. Inaatake na ako ng anxiety attack. I could not breathe, i wanted to vomit.

Finally, I saw the result. I shouted when i saw my name in the list. I cried. I was so happy.

Unfortunately, not all of us passed. A lot of my friends who were really smart did not pass. The fact the test was easy, and I know that , for them it was also easy, surprised me. I cried with them too. Sharing in their sadness.

I went home and thanked GOD. I knew he was listening, as he always do.

One more worry left. On November 5, we would be given our WPA, or grades in all our subjects. And this time there are no three cahnces. IT'S EITHER YOU MAKE IT OR YOU BREAK IT.

I want to pass and graduate. Please GOD i need you.