boredom

boredom at it's finest.
I am so bored right now. I cant enjoy my 5 days break away from school. Siguro kasi I still have worries pa.Na sana "HOPEFULLY" mawala na.
Wala akong magawa dito sa bahay. SO BORING.
I'll try to be positive na lang, at least, there's no school. YEY!!
I was reading this novel by John Grisham, na im almost finished. Unfortunately, my sister, took it, for some reaseon, at until now, di ko pa din sya tapos. Siguro kung I had a book to read, I wouldn't be so goddamn bored!!!

sem break?!?!

SemBreak na yata namin. I dont know, kasi naman noh, sem break ba yun dahil undas lang??
WHATEVER!!!
Well, 5 days is enough rest. Sanayan lang yan, pag nursing student ka.Ang gulo-gulo ngayon sa school. Well, particularly MY BATCH, the seniors. Pano ba naman kasi noh, sa monday na dapat "supposedly" ang bigayan ng grades at enrollment. BUT, before mo makuha yung grades mo dapat you have to complete the clearance/ requirements like 1st, hard bound copy ng thesis, which is wala pa ako dahil..napaka-complicated ng mga tao sa research center. 2 weeks na naming na pass yung thesis namin for checking ng coordinator ng research center, as expected, ngayon lang namin nakuha. And now na holiday mood na ang lahat, at walang pasok sa school, HOW THE HELL ARE WE SUPPOSED TO PASS OUR THESIS??buti sana kung wala pang mga procedures bago mapass yung thesis, well meron pa.. ichecheck pa ulit yun.. saka bibigyan kami ng permission to hard bound our thesis. Long procedure huh? 2nd, make-up duty na hanggang nayon wala pa kaming schedule..kaya goodluck tlaga sa mga walang kwentang pamamalakad ng school namin.
Pressured na nga kami,dagdag pa to. And that's beside the fact na very often na akong tinatanong ni mama kung kelan daw ang enrollment. Ma, excited?!?!hehehe!!!Why wouldn't she, hopefully this is my last sem, ibig sabihin nun, IM ALMOST THERE AT MAKAKAHINGA NG MALUWAG SILA MAMA AT PAPA!Ako din naman noh??

miracles do happen

i've been quite busy this past 2 weeks..kya walng akong entry sa blog..
anyway, i will tell you what happened to me this 2 weeks..
let me start:

october 17
it was the 4th year orientation day on the requirements needed for us to proceed in the second sem and to graduate, as well. This, was a very emotional day for all of us. We knew that the faculty of CON would tell us about the much awaited diagnostic test. Rumors have been spreading, about the diagnostic exam. Rumors like, if we didn't pass, we would not graduate. So we were all eager to know what really is going to happen when we fail. Unfortunately, the rumors were all true. One of our 4th year level coordinator, said that we would be given three chances to pass the diagnostic exam. But honestly, i really i didn't really care about the second or the third chance. I want to PASS the test only in my first take, because my parents would be sad if I dont pass the test and I would never have the guts to face them again. When askedm what we will study for the diagnostic exam, our coordinator just said "Yung mga Basic Skills sa Nursing"
I wanted to shout, "Alin dun sa mga basic skills sa nursing!!!!" I think at that time lahat kami gustong isgaw yun. But we din't have the guts to say it, because a lot of things and emotions were going to us at that time.
After, the orientation me and my friends went to St. Jude Church to pray. I prayed so hard na hidi ko na alam na i was crying na pala. Siguro kasi, all the emotions in me wanted to get out. I was so scared not to pass. I was even more scared, of DISAPPOINTING MY PARENTS. They expect more of me.
After that i started to study all my previous and present lecture notes. I said to myself I WILL PASS THIS TEST, ONE TAKE ONLY.

October 22
DIAGNOSTIC EXAM DAY. We were all very nervous. I bought a rosary with me. Before beginning the the test we were all given a time to say our individual prayer. I prayed and put the rosary in my heart, like I always do when i take exams.
After the exam, all of us felt happy, because the diagnostic examm, surprisingly, was EASY. I am not boasting or anything but it was much more easy compared to our comprehensive exams. So all of us, were confident that we would pass.
They were going to post the result of the exams on 4:00pm. It was a LONG 5 hour break. So we decided to go to baclaran and to MOA.

4:30-the team level of 4th year were already posting the result. Inaatake na ako ng anxiety attack. I could not breathe, i wanted to vomit.

Finally, I saw the result. I shouted when i saw my name in the list. I cried. I was so happy.

Unfortunately, not all of us passed. A lot of my friends who were really smart did not pass. The fact the test was easy, and I know that , for them it was also easy, surprised me. I cried with them too. Sharing in their sadness.

I went home and thanked GOD. I knew he was listening, as he always do.

One more worry left. On November 5, we would be given our WPA, or grades in all our subjects. And this time there are no three cahnces. IT'S EITHER YOU MAKE IT OR YOU BREAK IT.

I want to pass and graduate. Please GOD i need you.

Energency Room

It was our time to have our exposure in the ER..our duty was one of a government hospital here in manila.I know all of you watch the series "ER", so i know your expectations,My expectaion was ER is a place PACKED WITH ACTION. Doctors and nurses, carefully assesing patients and giving them emergency treatments. To my disappointment, that was not the case.
Yes, there were many patients, but, there were no doctors. Para bang nagusap-usap ang mga pasyente na at 9:00 am, they would all come in the ER. I panicked and so did my groupmates, because we badly needed to help the patients but what can we do? were just NURSING STUDENTS, and as badly as we wanted to act, we can't.
There was this one patient in the ER, he was brought by one of his neighbors and complained of "Abdominal pain." I can see it on his face that he was really in pain. I wanted to help him, but, again what can i do?I wanted to give him some medications, to relieve his pain, but, unfortunately, i can't.So i just said to him to wait for the doctors.
An hour passed, the doctors finally came. I wondered what if there was a more life-threatening situation in the ER that moment when the doctors were not around. What will happen then?

confusing emotions

here's what happened to me today..

i went to shool, i got our thesis signed..finally..only one signature left for me to accomplish..

2 signatures down only one to go..i said happily to myself..

after a couple of hours..

my friend told me that our final grades, was finally out..and many in our batch FAILED..

SHIT!!just what i needed, to brighten my day..

it's like ive been slapped in the face..RIGHT ON!!

when will this ever end?its like a circle that has no ending..

i dont know, what to do anymore..i want to see my grades.But what if i was among the students who failed..

i cant even imagine what i will do if that really happen..

Thesis, Thesis

Im going to school again this day..to pass our revised thesis. Hopefully, our panel will sign it.Im getting so tired and frustrated about this thesis. It's one BIG PAIN IN THE ASS. I've got lots of things to worry about. And I can't concentrate because of this.

Sino ba naman kasi ang nag-imebento ng thesis?!!!!!

haay...

please..

i just want this to end..

Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows

I bought this book..one week after it's release..

I finished two days after I bought it...

Im a bookworm..and i've been collecting harry potter books since i was in second year high school..So, now you know why i finished it in only 2 days.

Back to the book..

The book was GREAT..

J.K Rowling made a great job writing this book..

There are good and bad points about this book..First let's go to the GOOD POINTS..

1. Finally, it showed the other side of Dumbledore, who is one of my favorite characters. It showed na he's not so perfect after all, despite the fact that he is a powerful and well known wizard, he is still HUMAN, and is capable of making mistakes.
Nevertheless, the book did not forget to include the reason why i love dumbledore so much. His never-ending wisdom and kindness.

2. At last, the truth why Snape hated Harry Potter from the very beginning was revealed. An end to the much awaited drama, between the both of them.
The reason why Snape killed Dumbledore and which side was Snape on, was uncovered. This is the major reason, why I bought this book and why i wanted to finish the book so badly.

3. I love the fact that Harry Potter named his children after the two Hogwart Headmaster.

4. My favorite part in the book was THE BATTLE OF HOGWARTS..I wont tell any details about it, because HARRY POTTER DIE HARD FANS and those that have not read the book might curse me.

BAD POINTS:

1. Many members Order of the Phoenix died. This was really heart breaking. Because i loved most of them.

2. Mejo bitin, yung ending for me.. it did not include the job Harry Potter was in and a lot of stuff. That i would like to know.

BOTTOM LINE, It was a GREAT BOOK..

I loved it..

Im looking forward to the movie..I hope that it's as great as the book.

Farewell, to Harry Potter, Dumbledore,Hermione, Ron, Hagrid and all the characters that I love.

love dilemma

first and foremost..

this is not about me or about my love life. Let's just be clear on that.

Question: What do you when you find out that your boyfriend's cheating on you?
Answer: I'll leave him..as simple as that..
Question: What if both of them are your friends or you know them, and you know that the guy's cheting will you tell the girl?
Answer: Honestly..for me..the right thing to do is to tell the girl..but i know na some of you dont agree with me..Kaya ilalabas ko n lang dito yung opinion ko.

Let's name the characters of the story by alias:

dodong- the guy
inday- the girl friend
diding- the third party

Those are not their real names by the way.. ginawa ko lang ganyan..dahil trip ko..

dodong and inday have been together na for the at least one year. They're both at the same batch and are school mates.And ngayon ko lang nalaman, na all along..nagkakalabuan na pala sila..

diding and dodong are classmates and groupmates. so, madalas talaga silang magkita.
I think that their intinmate closeness begun when we went out of town. During those times, they share the same plate kahit na kumpleto naman kami ng mga plates, nagsusubuan,at nagtatabi sa pagtulog.

Why am i saying this?

because it really bothers me, i know inday, and i know for a fact na kung nakita nya yung mga ginagawa ni dodong at ni diding..magagalit sya..

I mean..any girl will naman..

I'm really pissed off with diding, because she knows naman na dodong has a girlfriend. She even knows inday. Pero nakikipaglandian pa din sya kay dodong.

I strongly believe, na women are superior to men when it comes to emotional reasons.

kya, i expected diding to show some respect to inday, dahil babae din sya at i know naman na she felt the same way when that also happened to her. Unfortunately, that was not the case. Siya pa ang lumalapit kay dodong.

Kay dodong nya nkita ang mga traits na boyfriend material

Which is good..kung walang ibang taong involve..

Unfortunately meron..

Ky dodong naman...

kahit na ba, their relationship is on the rocks.that doesn't give him the right para maghanap ng iba.

Men will always find a reason to justify their wrong doings..

Sadly, kahit yung mga close friends ni inday, dont want to say a thing about this.

I pity inday, because she has no clue what so ever sa mga ginagawa ni dodong..


can love really be this tragic?

unusual cravings

i so badly want to eat steak..as in everytime i watch a cooking show..ayy..grabe..naglalaway ako..

kaya ako tumataba ehh..ang dami kong gustong kainin..

mashed potatoes.. the perfect partner for my steak...syang nga lang i dont know how to cook one..

but i know its just easy...




shawarma....

naman.. naman ang aking first and only favorite arabian food..hmm.. kelan ko kaya ulit toh matitikman..no offense sa Philippine shawarma..pero mas masarap talaga ang gawang SAUDI...just chicken, potatoes, mayonnaise and pickles...it's really true..

pag-depress ang isang tao..walang maisip kundi pagkain..

bee happy

hehe..FINALLY!!! Nasuot ko na ang head costume ni Jolibee..and i have to say..mabigat sya! Ulo pa lang yan..wala pa yung whole custume..

At least khit mdmi akong problems, whenever i seethis picture..it gives me a reason to laugh, and somehow yung worries ko about school nwawala..

iba nga talaga si jolibee...

reflection on our emirsion

Meet jun-jun. One of our kid assistant when we went to our emirsion in "barangay ithan". When we went there, we expected the worst. But thanks to our school they still provided us with a nice house to live for three days.

During our emirssion, I realize how lucky I am to live my life. We're not rich. I belong to middle-class family, but my parents provided us everything we ever need. And yet I still find reasons to complain about my life. I guess it's only human that i complain, about stuff. I know it's not an excuse.

Anyway, what i saw during the emirsion was really an eye-opener of how life is really hard for some Filipinos, of how the corruption affects our people. RizAL, is a beautiful town with beautiful sceneries. But behind those, are the town people's longingness for a beautiful life for their family.

Jun Jun and the other kids who assisted us lack motivation in attending school. They would rather play with their yo-yo's or swim in the batis than to go to school. It's really sad, because I know that a lot of children feel the same way as they do. I remember asking a one of the mother in the barangay, on how come she doesn't motivate her children to go to school. And she just only said this " Wala din namang mangyayari kung mag-aaral sila"

I know you're shocked about this. I was shocked too when i heard that. But who are we to blame them if they do not see a bright future ahead of them.

shame on deperate housewives

Last night ko lang nalaman ang issue na ito. But, i was so angry with what i heard. I couldn't believe that they would actually say something like that. I know some of the filipinos are affected by this and i know some of us are also not affected by it. Well, i am a NURSING STUDENT here in the philippines. And that is why, im very affected by this isssue. I watch Desperate Housewives, it's one of my favorite shows. But i was so disappointed and angry with their scriptwriter. This is not a racial slur.

It is an attack on the medical profession here in the Philippines. Filipino doctors and nurses alike, strive hard to get to where they are right now. You dont just get a medical license that easily, and i know everyone in the medical profession agrees. This medical profession's goal is to save lives . That is why, it should be taken seriously.

Filipino doctors and nurses alike are highly recommended abroad. At hindi purkit lahat ng filipino doctors and nurses ay gustong pumunta abroad pwede na nilang sabihin yun. Doctors and Nurses are not desperate. Kung wala tayo, malamang ay wala ding mag-aalaga skanila, we filipinos are highly recommended abroad because we render TENDER, LOVING, CARE TO THE PATIENTS. So they dont have the right to say that to the medical profession or to any profession here in the philippines.

What is the reason behind those lines teri hatcher delivered?

I dont know..Is it to humor the audience?

Is it because of the June 2006 Board exam? If that was the case, why should they generalize?

Hindi ba alam ng stupid scriptwriter ng desperate housewives na the Health Care System in the United States is working because of Filipino Doctors and Nurses.

We have the right to demand an apology from ABC, for the humiliation they've caused to the medical profession in the Philippines. They should be responsible in what they are writing and showing their viewers.

chance or choice?

- When you meet the right perosn to love, at the right place at the right time that's a chance...

- When you meet someone you're attracted to that's a chance..

-Being caught that there are many people out there who are more attractive , smarter, richer than your mate and yet you decided to love your mate just the same that's a choice...

- Attraction comes to us by chance . But true love that lasts truly is our choice..

- Fate brings you together but it is still up to you to make it happen. We may meet someone by chance, but loving and staying with that some is still a choice..

life after finals

Our final exam is finished..as expected the test was fucking hard...haay..ewan ko ba...i feel like im going to fail.I know im just being pessimistic, but if you were me and you took the exam, you'll feel the same way too.

By the way, before the exam i got a note saying that i was going to take a remedial exam this monday.What a good way to start a day!!!%^&#!!i mean my mind was totally positive before that incident. thanks to that, i could not focus on my other exam.

After the exam, the CON was full of students. I went there to follow up on our thesis, which by the way, still needs improvement according to our panel. In the CON i saw my friend Krung she said she was worried about her grades, i said to her in a matter-of-fact tone that she doesn't need to worry.Krung, by the way belongs to the section 2, which means she's really smart, she's also a scholar of our school. So you can see the reason why I said that to her. I mean come on!!!
I just want all of my problems to go away!!! JUST WANT TO GRADUATE THIS MARCH!!!

Can that really be difficult??

a first time for everything

Its my first time to create a blog

So go easy on me..

Well as of now, im going to take our final exam and im really worried abou it.i dont know why, i guess that being a nursing student is really hard and challenging.

All the seniors feel the same way as i do. Our school warned us that not all of us are going to graduate this march. How about that?!!! All of us, deserves to graduate. Because all of us strive hard to get to fourth year. I think that we already prove ourselves to the school. I dont see any reason why they're doing that to us. Just because we got a 95% passing rate in the board exam this june, doesn't give them a right to do that to our batch.

I dont know if its for ours...

or for the school...